September 10

"Boys will be boys and girls have those eyes that will cut you to ribbons sometimes."

Have you ever looked at someone who instantly shot right through your being and you felt like you've known each other forever? Me neither. But I plan on this happening at some point. A desperate fool or a hopeless romantic . I really, really hope I'm the latter.

You know why I was adamant over the fact that 500 Days of Summer was one of the best and most underrated films of last year? Because I was that character.

I know what it's like to hope

and find

and live

and forget

and lose

and obsess

and deal

and accept

and move on

and restore

and hope again.

Completely ruined or a hopeless romantic? Definitely option 2.

Great soundtrack, by the way.

DAMN IT! See what happens when it's 2:30am and there are no signs of fatigue in sight? I don't even know where that all came from. Haha.

Well, this is definitely becoming a more personal blog now, isn't it? Took long enough.

Let's end on a high note. That announcement concerning work I mentioned yesterday lasted all of 24 hours. As of earlier today, I am the active editor of a documentary that's been 3+ years in the making. This means, if all goes well, by the turn of the new year I'll have my first feature film editing credit. To potentially have a life accomplishment met in the next 6 months is something I haven't completely wrapped my head around yet. For now, I need to take it step by step and do my best to finish this project.

It's an exciting opportunity, that's for sure. Best of all, I'll be able to do this from home.

Step one: Go over the hours and hours of archived footage, take notes, and learn this story from the ground up. I'm not exaggerating when I say this will take at least 2 weeks. I'm also not exaggerating when I say this smile hasn't left my face all day.

Recently I read something that made more sense to me than I thought it would at first. It had to do with "learning how to trust life". I pride myself in being a fairly logical thinking person, but I realize there are things that just can't be explained. The more I reflected on the last few years, the more I realized how, for some reason, I never felt panicked or even that worried. Something in the back of my mind always calmed me down, but it was something that I couldn't put into words until a week ago. Trust life. It's almost too simple, but it can't be described any other way. Funny; All it took for me to get it was 25 years and "an unromantic blog entry."

Her words, not mine,

B